Ch Ch Ch Ch Changes...

Well only 4 months this time... getting better.

Wow! This past month has been a roller coaster. But since its been awhile I should give a little background.

Money has become desperately tight for me. I had managed along pretty well even without the extra cash I was getting from working on the race cars. But gradually I had been noticing that I was getting to the last week of the month and had no money left. I managed to scrape by but its been becoming worse and worse as prices rise and my income doesn't. It finally got to the point I didn't even have money for the phone anymore which greatly distressed my ex since I'm still on her account. I had sent her messages telling her that I had no idea when I would be able to send anything and that if she had to she could shut off my service.

Then I got a message from her son. Big trouble, shes in jail and hes in foster care. The phones were working long enough for me to talk to him a couple of times and send some messages but then a few days later they were off.

I am not sure what the hell happened to my ex. Something has changed in her and not for the better. I don't know what she was locked up for but I was told that she could be facing serious jail time. There have been several incidents that have revolved around her involving the police that I was told about recently, one involving the SWAT team! I hate to think of all the trauma her son has been through. Thankfully Grandma is picking John up so he and his sister will be together again. I hope to see them both the next time I'm in Southern California.

As for me I am trying to get healthier. I have started replacing one meal a day with a whole food smoothie. I'm just winging it on the recipes but they are usually 1-2 fruits + 1-2 vegetables + greens like kale, collards, beet or even spinach, put them in a blender with a couple of ice cubes and bingo! Grass clippings in apple sauce!! Ok, now what it lacks in deliciousness it more than makes up for in nutrition. I can feel a definite energy boost after I have it and its got the plumbing running at full capacity. Now I just need to keep my head in the game on this and not let temptation ruin it.

My prosthetic has become problematic again after almost of month of no issues. I am still getting irritation and rubbing in the inside of my knee but if I stay off it for a few days everything settles down. Can't wait for them to make a new one, just waiting on approval now.

Well I guess that brings us up to date!

Wow, I did it again...

Now its been over 2 years since I last posted here. So much has happened I don't know where to begin.

A few months after my last post Christine and I broke up. I didn't see it coming... I was so wrapped up with the loss of the leg I wasn't paying attention to what was important and the resentments she had built up has cause her to become distant. As I tried to reach out to her she withdrew more and finally let me know how she felt.

Leaving was very hard on me. I still miss the kids a lot, but I did get a visit with both of them a few days before Christmas year before last and I saw Breanna down in Southern California for lunch while she was with her Grandma. I am hoping I can get down to visit Johnnie sometime soon.

I moved up to Sonoma County, Rohnert Park specifically, and got back into working on race cars part time. It felt good to get up and be physical but my limitations became apparent very quickly. I started having problems with my left foot almost immediately. I would go on a race trip, get a blister and spend months healing up... or more accurately not healing up and eventually losing my big toe to an infection. After the next trip it was the same thing on the next toe, then the third but we managed to heal it. All it took was a customized shoe and sitting on my ass for 6 months.

So where am I now? The current battle is with a couple of pressure sores on the back of my knee on the stump leg. I have a new prosthetic leg (its tie-dye and looks awesome!) but I have started to have issues with it. I am hoping to get the bugs worked out and heal up so I can seriously work on losing weight. My left knee has arthritis and inflammation around the kneecap which have been causing me lots of pain. More exercise will help that too. I am also finally seeing a therapist to help me put perspective on my situation and find some happiness.

As far as work goes I am still technically unemployed but I am working on some projects. My Dad wrote a cookbook and developed some spice rubs for pellet grilling. I built his website http://www.unclebobssmokinhotbbq.com and will continue to help him try and grow his business. It's been very rewarding in so many ways, unfortunately not financially... yet!

I am going to try and post more... seriously :)